gratitude

I have been going through a personal financial crises. Over the last two years, I have been unemployed about 14 months, with the predictable impact on things like my credit score. Finally, after weeks of discussion, forms, lawyers and tension, the mortgage holder (Fannie Mae) agreed to modify our loan so we can keep our home.

I have a personally difficult time asking anyone, including God for help. It is something I got from my parents, a man takes the blows and slogs on or something. So, I found it nearly impossible to pray for a solution, besides, I don't think God works that way. But today, after the mortgage servicer told me that we finally had an agreement, I could and did go to mass and pray in thanksgiving.

I wonder, why is that? I am grateful (truly) but I could not seek something. I suspect there is something there for me to think on for a while. I suspect I will still be thinking on it when I cook the turkey in November.

FWIW